Happy Anniversary to meee!!!

It's been two amazing years today!! I cannot believe how much has happened in such a short amount of time and how fast it has gone by! Jason is amazing, I can't imagine being married to a more amazing man! I'm soo in love!

This is getting old

BFN. I shouldn't feel like this considering I don't even know if I ovulated, it shouldn't be so disappointing but it is. Since today is CD 40 my Dr wants to see my on Clomid next cycle. I wasn't charting but I am/was using OPK's (O after CD 30 isn't quality even if it does happen that's why I stopped) and never detected a surge though I only tested once a day so I guess I could have missed it but chances are I didn't, it just didn't happen. So we've got some thinking to do. I just wish this cycle would end already and not go as long as 'normal.'

And the weirdness continues....

**Don't read on if you don't want to read way to much about my body and lady region...

That said, I'm going to C&P what I posted on the boards a few days ago and then update.

For the last couple days I've thought AF was about to start, but it hast happened yet. Okay here's what happening... I'm having what I'd say is some EWCM and creamy for the last 2 or 3 days, but about half the time the EWCM has like a dark brown clot type thing within it (about half a pea size). So weird. It's not mixed or streaked, it's separate of each other, just one within the other. Soo anyone know what I'm talking about?? LOL I would think it would be going on to long to be implantation spotting or O spotting or whatever, but it doesn't seem like true "spotting" to me either, it's just strange!

So I had a few more 'spots' that day (the 21st) and nothing since. I was soo hoping AF was coming because that would make my cycle so much shorter than my normal, almost a normal person's normal! LOL But no. So WTH. I'm so screwy! Several people said to POAS but I havent since the 19th, I just don't think that is it. I am however going to the 26th if AF doesn't show up because it's our wedding anniversary and I might like to have a drink at dinner, and it would just be cool! (Have you noticed I'm liking to pee on things on special days lately??) Anyway, pregnant or not, I would just like this cycle to resolve!

And BFN...

:0(

I don't even know if testing is complete waste because I don't know if I even ovulated, I'm using OPK's and haven't gotten a + but could have missed the surge I guess, I'm coming up on CD 40 though so I think my time is up for this cycle. I think I'm heading in the same direction as with Ethan, but this time my Dr said she'd intervene much faster so that's good I suppose. So we'll see!

Testing Tomorrow

I know I was going to wait longer but I just realized I have a dentist appt tomorrow and might have x-rays done soo I'd like to take a little extra precaution! Most likely a BFN but just in case I don't want to fry my little guys head! Also tomorrow is Jason's birthday and that would just be cool! :0) Wish us luck! ;0)

Grades

I made straight A's this semester!
GO ME!! :0)

1st Birthday, Mother's Day and more!!

Ethan's birthday did not go as planned, but everything ended up working out anyway!
The day before Jason was suppose to be off, well he got scheduled last minute (read the day before) to work that day which put me in a tizzy trying to do all the preparation alone, bake 100 cupcakes, make cakeballs without anyone to help watch Ethan.



So early in the morning I go at it, the cupcakes needed to cool before I could ice and decorate them, did I mention I had a baby shower that day too? Well yes, I did, with food I needed to bring/make that morning as well. Oye. So I'm pouring the first batch of cupcakes into the papers and Ethan is playing on the floor. I look up and he's gone... where the heck is he?? Then it happened, the mixer went flying off the counter top (he yanked on the cord) and fell right onto his forehead. Que waterworks... from both of us. I was so overwhelmed and then this. He was hurt, the day before his birthday because I was doing stuff for his birthday. He stopped crying after about a minute but I did not. He ended up with a bump and a bruise but was other wise fine. Scared the shite out of me. We went to the surprise shower where I forgot my food and had to come all the way back home to get which made me miss the big "surprise" which ticked me off, LOL.







So I finally get home and finish baking cupcakes, put Ethan down to bed and start everything else. I ice and decorate the cupcakes, which didn't work out the way I wanted but oh well. Then make and decorate the cakeballs. I stupidly only got some prep pictures but forgot to take finished pics, they were actually VERY pretty and everyone LOOVEEDD them!



I'm finishing things up and hear Ethan, he raaarely wakes up anymore so I go in there and he is COVERED in snot. Great. And that was our night, he woke about every 15-20 minutes because he couldn't breathe and needed his nose sucked out. He was sick and soo tired and it was his birthday. Total suckage. (That morning when he woke up he had a snot helmet from rubbing his head in it then letting it dry, his hair... what little he has was rock solid!)



The next day, his birthday, we're trying to get everything set up to go to the park- we were having a BBQ! It was to start at noon and I was down there setting up at noon, I know, I'm a slacker! In our defense though NO ONE was here to help and so someone had to stay with Ethan at the house while the other went to the park, it was a bit of a dance. We wanted to keep E at the house as long as possible because he didn't feel well. Well at noon no one was there, LOL. Everyone was half an hour to an hour late except my parents who were only a few minutes late. Then everyone bitched about the food not being ready. Whatever. Anyway Jason and I were wondering where his parents were when at 1 we get a call that they were just leaving their house... THREE hours away! Wow. Really?? How long did they think the party was going to last?! So yes, they missed it. Asshats. (there's a lot of history here I'm not going into now!) We decide to just do Ethan's cupcake and go home, he wasn't crying but he was super clingy which isn't like him, he just didn't feel good.





Not impressed, LOL.



He seemed to kind of like it but was so tired and had no energy to even play in it. Poor little man. Though he was getting a kick out of my mom trying to give him water out of the bottle!



Other than that he just hung out with me or daddy while we were there. He usually loooves to go with other people, but today wasn't the day for that!



We went home soon after, brought his gifts to the house and let him open them the next day. He was thrilled with all the paper!! (and some of the toys, ha!)



Here's a video of him with the toy mommy and daddy got him!



He loves it!! It's really helping him to walk too! He's much better at it than I can get on video, but you get the idea!

Mother's Day!!

Ethan seemed to feel a bit better though his nose was still running like crazy. We decided to go to the Symphony at the Zoo for a few hours.



The music was great, though it was SUPER crowded and hot!! I didn't expect there to be quite that many people! Here's my mom and step dad enjoying the tunes!



And Ethan digging for Puffs and Melts...



Here's Jason with Ethan asleep in his car seat after the Zoo, his hat was over his face, which we thought was funny, the kid was pooped!



We went with my parents and Jason's parent so it ended up being a great Mother's Day!

When we got home we did the other portion of Ethan's birthday gift from my parents. My step dad built a form to put concrete in and to put Ethan's hands and feet in. We are going to to it every year and put them as stepping stones through our garden. I think it will be really cool to see to progression from year to year!

Waiting for the concrete to firm up with mamo and grandpa!





Still waiting... with his pants on his head!



He was NOT impressed!! He didnt like it at all! I'm hoping next year it'll be much more fun for him!







Mom writing in his name and the date.





Now for Ethan's favorite part of the day!! Bath time!! I love my little helmet head! We stick as many letters to him as possible and he doesn't care, he doesnt even take them off! LOL!!





My baby is a toddler, how crazy is that?!?!

BFN

Even for a "normal" person I was testing early, I should have known better (and I did) but I tested anyway. Well now that it's out of my system I think I'll be waiting much longer! *sigh*

This day last year...

I was pregnant. I had a tiny baby inside of me kicking and rolling around. This time last year I was at my nieces birthday party in my second day of labor. I can't believe my baby is growing up so fast! He has such a little personality and is more than I could have ever imagined or hoped for. He's my life, he's absolutely perfect. Just perfect.

Crazy 8's!

Thanks Katie for the tag! I've never done one of these type things in my blog! First time for everything!

Here are the rules of the game:
-Mention the person that tagged you.
-Complete the following lists of 8's.
-Tag 8 of your wonderful bloggy friends.
-Go tell them you tagged them!

Eight Things I'm Looking Forward To:

1) Ethan's FIRST birthday! (Next Saturday!!!)
2) Getting pregnant with Ethan's little brother or sister
3.) Learning about photography
4.) Starting my photography business
5.) The opening of my mom's new home health business! Over two years in the making!
6.) Growing old with Jason
7.) Ethan talking! He seems like he already has soo much to say!
8.) Graduating!

Eight Things I Did Yesterday:


1.) Got Ethan out of bed
2.) Fed him
3.) Did homework
4.) Wasted time on the internet
5.) Talked to Jason
6.) Took a walk with Ethan to put birthday invites in the neighbors mail boxes.
7.) Got pee'd on (Thanks Ethan!)
8.) Ate grilled chicken and salad for dinner! Yum!

Eight Things I Wish I Could Do:

1.) Sew better, I do it but most of the time it ends in a series of minor disasters!
2.) Speak another language
3.) Save animals from their abusers
4.) Buy my new camera and editing software so I can really get started!
5.) Exercise without feeling like my lungs are on fire
6.) I wish I could do my make-up and hair! Man, I stink at it!
7.) Take an around the world cruise
8.) Travel

Eight Shows I watch:
1.) Extreme Home Makeover
2.) House
3.) Grey's Anatomy
4.) Private Practice
5.) Jon and Kate plus 8
6.) Scrubs
7.) Breaking Bad
8.) Planet Earth

So I tag~
Everyone who reads this!! :0) Dooo it!!

Have Fun!!

Nap Time

Ethan is a FABULOUS sleeper, always has been! He only got up once a night, around 3am when he came home from the hospital and around 6 weeks he started STTN. For months now he's been consistently sleeping 13+ hours a night! I'm such a lucky momma! Nap time on the other hand, for the first six months he didn't even know naps existed, he wasn't cranky, he just didn't nap. After six months he started napping in the late morning to early afternoon and that quickly turned into a 2.5-3 hour nap every day which is wonderful! This wonderful nap though was in the swing, sooo now I think he needs to take naps in the crib, he sleeps GREAT in his crib at night, it's not a new place to him... so why does he scream like I sat him on a nail when I put him in there for a nap?! Yesterday was the first day, he cried for about 45 minutes until I went in there, picked him up and sat down and about 30 seconds late he was out like a light. I then put him back in the crib and he slept three hours. I just put him down for his nap today and he only cried maybe seven minutes though Im afraid to go in there and see if he's actually sleeping, if he's awake and sees me he'll cry. I think we're getting better though! Lets hope nap time today is a success! Sounds like it so far, all I hear is silence!! :0)

UPDATE: I just went in there and this is what I found...



I'm guessing he sat up to cry, then just folded over and fell asleep! Poor little man! I moved him and he didn't appreciate it, but he fell back asleep immediately. To funny!

Getting ready for the big day!

Ethan's FIRST birthday!! I got a few things in the mail today, his birthday banner which is pretty dang big, his "1" candle with a little caterpillar crawling up it, some balloons and a cup cake stand! I have a ton more planning to do because the joint party we were doing with my sister and niece isn't happening anymore (found this out yesterday!) so we're back to the drawing board with very little time left! I don't even have a location! (My house is out because we don't have anything for slightly older kids, toys etc. and our back yard is dog poo and sand and basically just boring!) So wish us luck! No matter what I know Ethan will have fun though! As long as there are people to hold and love on him he's cool as a cucumber! :0) That's all we need, a happy little E for his birthday!

“Your birthday is a special time to celebrate the gift of 'you' to the world.”

Why??

I just got word that my cousin's four month old son died in his sleep. I try to imagine what their feeling and I absolutely cannot even fathom a fraction of their pain. It's impossible to know what they are going through without ever having been there, and I pray I never have to go there. I try to imagine something I could say or do that would help, and I've come to the conclusion there is nothing. Nothing will help. When my dad died nothing anyone said helped, and I imagine it's the same for them. So I'll just be there for them and if they need anything they know I'm here, I'm here to listen and be supportive and to cry with them, but so far that's all I have, I just don't want to cause extra pain. (If that's even possible.) Please keep them in your prayers.

CD 1

Yay! New start! This cycle was only about 2 months, so that is much shorter than my average so that good too! I'm thinking about starting to chart again but charting through loooong cycles suck and that is more discouraging than the cycle itself, so we'll see. Now to get through the heavy part of my period with a baby on the run! Always fun!

Meal Planning

This Week-
Bourbon Chicken
Sour Cream Enchiladas
Broccoli and Cheese Soup
Beef Cups (First time trying this!)
Beans and Cornbread
Quinoa and Veggies
Chicken Tortilla Soup

Even though the menu is for seven days it usually last 1.5 to 2 weeks due to left-overs. For all the ingredients for the above meals I spend about $70. Not to bad! When we meal plan we have nicer dinners and spend less money! Funny how that works... We also spend less time doing this, "what do you want for dinner? I don't know, what do you want for dinner? You decide... but I asked you first!" This is going to be a yummy week! :0)

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